Where to start. When to start. How to start…
It’s been over a year since I’ve blogged because I spent quite a lot of time and effort producing THE TORCH BEARER’s EXORCISM. While the reception of my second book was mostly positive its publication (as expected) did not raise me out of poverty. No throngs camped overnight waiting eagerly to buy copies. I have sold a few but I have certainly had to maintain “the grind” as in endurance of unrelenting heaps of drudgery to earn a paycheque to pay bills. It truly does grind me down, wear me down, day after day; to the point I have found it difficult to return to my own thoughts and self. Well, in fact I normally shut myself off from myself while I am at the place of work that pays my bills. I endeavour to put my mind in a fireproof security box to ensure no one may be offended by my genuine thoughts. It is exhausting and it takes hours of decompression at the end of each day just to relax enough to sleep. Having dogs helps to ease the stress when they aren’t vomiting or whining or eating the carpet or chewing on the bannisters. Petting dogs helps.
Anyway, I’ve had a full five days off work thanks to the long April bank holiday weekend, and as soon as my backed up list of chores was cleared the first thing I wanted to do was sit and type. We’ll see how long this new found vigour lasts, and whether anyone may care.
Should I care if anyone cares? Is the expression of thought truly expressed if no one listens or reads? Think not. I think a person cannot express anything unless they are expressing it to another sentient entity. Dogs are good to an extent for this, but they have difficulty with nuance and frankly their vocabularies are quite limited. I seek to express something a bit more complex. Time will tell if anyone cares to read or listen.
(THE TORCH BEARER’s EXORCISM is reviewed by forewordreviews here: https://www.forewordreviews.com/reviews/the-torch-bearers-exorcism/ ; has its own website here: http://www.torchbearersexorcism.com/, and you can buy a copy here: https://www.amazon.co.uk/Torch-Bearers-Exorcism-Varela-Tychsen/dp/1524636347)